today

today my outlook seems better. And I feel better. I think it has to do with making the right decision finally. After all I went through today, I suddenly feel chipper. I don't know why, though I think it had a lot to do with Jay. Thank you for coming over. Wheat Thins.I need to work things out in my head. And in person. I am so bloody impatient though, it's dreadful :P I can wait. I finally caved in and bought Harry Potter - will be enjoying that for awhile! and I have plans this week! woohoo! and people to drive with me, and parties to go to, and little brothers to see. Or maybe just one little brother ;) Pieces are starting to fit - maybe not in ways I ever would have chosen or intended them to, but really, that's what life is about, right? You don't get to choose the way they fall. You can't stuff a piece in and expect the picture to come out right. It just won't. Anyway, now that I have a plan...and the time to execute it in, I feel more content. It's odd really, how strongly my feelings and emotions oscillate. I think that this will have a big (positive) effect on my health as well. I am happy, because hopefully that means I won't have to go through surgery! and that is allllllways a good thing. And for Seth and all those other people who haven't seen me before this year, You don't know me. I am a happy, positive independent person, and I enjoy that person and plan on getting back to it. I'm starting right now. :D